Living with RA 2021

2021 has been a difficult start to not only a new year but a new decade (Um…we don’t start decades on year zero, js).

I injured my knee back in December getting into bed.  What can I say, I’m old.  Our family experienced the first Covid19 Scare followed directly by the second Covid19 scare.  My body saw the injury as a meanie that needed to be destroyed.  That is exactly what it started doing.  A month later I’m still trying to bounce back from the attack.

The thought of standing in an upright position scares the hell out of me.  Why?  The pain.  It’s insanely intense and very real.  I have fatigue from the disease too.  I can’t sleep at night because of the pain.  RA is just horrible.  I would never wish this kind of torment on anyone. 

In all of this, my life continues.  My wife and son need me.  I need to be present.  If I’m crying while doing it then so be it but I need to keep going.  I literally drag myself to work every day.  My canes and braces and Tylenol in tow.

Sometimes I get down.  But I pull myself up because I have too. 

My greatest hope is this is just the left over crap of 2020 and that 2021 will eventually get better.  Like Giles from the episode “The Wish”…”Anything has got to be better than this”.

2021…A Lite Version of 2020?

So I had great hopes for 2021.  Sure I knew it wouldn’t fix 2020’s horrible traits, but I thought there was hope.  I finished out 2020 with not one, but two Covid scares.  So that was not fun at all.  Good news all of us were negative as we had minimal exposure to said Covid sources.  So yay us!

Then I had to miss my medical infusion for my RA because I was waiting for that test to confirm the negative.  That set my treatment back to the point of no return.  Of course, I injured my knee getting into bed around this time (yes, that happened).  It sent my RA into full attack mode leaving me unable to walk properly or sometimes at all.  That is how I ushered in 2021, a cripple.  I now have about 68% walking success so that’s something, I guess.

Then things just went off the rails when the Good Ole USA suffered an insurrection by the dumbest band of crazies in the world.  But I knew this would happen in some way back when I guy I knew all my life told me on Facebook I was racist against White People (I’m a White People) and a traitor to my own kind.  I was all set to respond to this crazy but realized after 3-1/2 years of Trumpkins it was wasted time.  What I wanted to say to him then was…’you still live in your Mom’s basement.  Seriously dude, you’re 54 years old!’

So then the Insurrection happened and now the crazies are all “we just got caught up in the fervor”.  Um, no, you did those things of your own volitional.  Seriously, some of you dressed for the occasion.  In that aftermath moment we got a glimpse of the “participation” trophy crowd.  What you did was real and it comes with consequences.  Can’t wait to see your trial broadcast and watch your face when they Prosecutor rolls out your top 25 Anti-Government tweets then follow that with the videos from you violating the Capitol building.  Now you weep, and are sort of contrite because you now realize your pensions, jobs, families and freedom from prison are all slipping away from you.  You are contrite because you are afraid.  Yet you wait for the grand leader to deliver you with blanket pardons.  Well, we will all find out whether he saves you or throws you under the MAGA Bus.

What I’m really pissed about is I was a Republican for 37 years.  Now…I’m a officially a Democrat.  It’s just a weird year and we are only 18 days in.

Today is MLK, Jr. Day.   Today I tell my son about a man who used peace to overcome hate and violence.   Being White shouldn’t be a privilege.  Only in the next few years will we see the tide turn where minorities will be in charge and have the power.   Then we will see the contrasting difference in how the people of the USA react differently.   Whites think there will be retribution.  Minorities know there won’t be because that would go against everything they fought for so determinedly.   Look at Georgia, the fix was in to stop minorities from voting…again.  In Georgia, minorities stood up, waited in long lines in a pandemic and voted in record numbers.  They saw the game was fixed and found the loopholes. 

This is really what is driving the Trump MAGA people.  In 2016, the found a way around the popular vote by going after the Electoral Vote.  In 2020, the Democrats did the same thing.  They didn’t steal the election.  The used the Republican/Trumplican playbook and changed the game forever!  The won it fair and square!

2021, will see us with vaccinations, adjustments, rebuilding lives and so many other things happening post Hate/MAGA/Pandemic world.  I’m just holding on for all that to happen!

Happy New Year!

Oh 2020…

2020 has been an awful year on most accounts. 

There are of course notable exceptions, like the birth of my son.  In all,  it has been an insane struggle.  The juggling of unemployment and bills and, oh yeah, a plague.  It’s been too much sometimes to deal with but there are no other choices but to plow through the muck and mire to get out of the bog.

I’m one of the lucky ones.  We have a roof over our heads, food on the table and we are all healthy (minus my RA).   We had our Covid scare and all tested negative. 

But like others in our category it’s been difficult not being able to take our baby anywhere.  Not seeing our friends in person and just having to isolate as much as possible.  Like so many others I wait anxiously for 2021 to right the wrongs of a lost year.   

We will start 2021 with a new President.  A man of great empathy and compassion.  He will fill his cabinet with strong and intelligent people.  He will be known for his number of women appointed to cabinet positions.   What will be different is the SWAMP of lobbyists will be gone from the White House.  Although, most of them got the boot by Trump a while ago.   America can begin to heal.  The worst impulses of the Trump followers will be squelched again.  They won’t go away but it won’t be as easy a task to spout out White Supremacy and conspiracy ideology.  The Reality TV Show Host Experiment is over on 1/20, even if he won’t acknowledge it.

2021, holds a flute of good feelings for me.  A hope I haven’t had in a very long time.  Do I really believe that Covid19 will just go away in a day after Biden is sworn in?  No, I don’t believe that.  What I do believe is we will have guidance from our Leadership we haven’t had in 4 years.  I believe in science.  I believe that the Vaccines now being administered are a big first step.  I hope there will be a national mask mandate if things don’t improve sooner than later.

It’s time for America/Americans to step up and be responsible people.  I think back to my Granny who lost a child in the 1918 Flu Pandemic.  She had far less to work with to survive.  She survived.  She survived the death of her daughter.  She survived having influenza herself.  She survived for 86 years.   I think we all can survive 2020. 

Respect each other.  Don’t hate people you don’t even know.  Remember that we are all in the same boat.  Wear your masks and survive!

Then The Rains Came…

We had Tropical Storm Isaias dump 5″ of rain in a 2 hour period.  That wasn’t fun.  It spawned tornadoes and high winds around our area.  That wasn’t fun either.  So today when it was just raining.  I accepted it much better than the massive flooding from Tuesday’s TS.

So far the summer has been very hot so I’ve taken to BBQ’ing to keep the heat outside.

I made bacon on the grill for the bacon cheeseburgers, lol.   Covid-19 has made home life more homie.  We are still in basic lockdown at our house.  Work then home and food and supplies shopping and that is about it.

Can’t wait for Covid-19 to take a hike.

The New Normal

I recently noticed the subtle changes around my home because of the New Normal.

When I come home this is where I put my keys and Masks I use during the week.  I have other masks for around the house.

I went outside to try and see the Blue Angels safely.  Alas, I wasn’t in the flight path so sadness.  Gloves and masks rule the day.  Someone please explain this to VP Mike Pence who hates Americans and only cares that he can get a Covid19 test when ever he wants.  American citizen do not have such luxuries.  Insert eye roll here!



Sheltering-in-Place Activities

I thought I would have so much more time to read during Shelter-in-Place.  It turns out not so much.  All those projects I was ignoring (like the crap piled on the Dining room table) apparently were taunting me to finished them.  So I’ve been doing those things.

Really, I would prefer to read instead!

I was also doing photo shoots with my action figures, HA HA HA!

COVID-19 and the New Normal

Life will never be the same again.  Anyone who thinks that is a fool.  It was through our own arrogance that the pandemic we saw coming seemingly, to some, has obliterated our lives.  We thought America was too strong and noble to be a victim of this deadly plague sweeping across the globe.  We are foolish and now pay the price for being so.

Stay home as much as you can.  Protect yourselves with upgraded hygiene, masks and other protective measures.  If you have to work or better put,  are allowed to work then take the necessary precautions to protect yourself and your loved ones.  For all those morons listening to their wealthy pastors telling them they need to come to church.  God….is everywhere.  One does not need to go to a structure for worship.  That little concept was made to ensure God became a business model.

Be safe people.  Don’t be stupid.  If you are stupid then your tombstone should reflect that stupidity when you die.  Only by being less selfish and more responsible can Americans survive this pandemic.  But alas, that has always been a character flaw with Americans and especially our sitting President.  Selflessness is a weakness and responsibility means finding someone to blame 😦  We are all responsible for the health and well being of our community.  My point is…don’t be a dick!


Autumn Feelings

I’m so glad the cooler temperatures of Autumn have invaded our little town.  We did experience mid 70’s this weekend but by the evening the cool breezes took over and my descent into crazy hot town was ebbing.

The colors have begun to change.  It’s absolutely glorious!

We did the Scarecrow Festival and there were some super cool ones.

Halloween is this week and I feel sad the month is almost over.  I love October so much.  We will barrel into the “holiday” season with Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year.  So much all at once.  The good part is spending time with family 🙂

Okay, if you have Prime Video and the time to watch something.  Watch the Paul Lynde Halloween Special.  It was camp, very 70’s and a riot!  Happy Almost Halloween!

A Beautiful Day In The Neighborhood

…and I’m stuck at work.

Why, oh why are the most beautiful days to enjoy the outside the days I must work.  Even getting outside for just an hour at lunchtime will be great but to think about Visiting The Arboretum for a few hours would have been way better 🙂

Last night’s rain cleared out the deep humidity and heat.  I will take it.  Then it’s back to deep summer temps again.  I guess it could be worse.  I could live in Europe where they just can’t get a break 😦